I'm not trying too hard to please you. I want to please me. I've wanted
to have a good chance at something with u for a bit and I've missed you
and I'm excited and happy for once, can't you understand that? It's
been
a long time since I've felt these things and I think you're treating me
like shit. I understand that I always want to do a million things and I
can appreaciate that you run a a slower pace. But just constantly
turning me down and knocking me is frustrating. I know u need to do
your
own thing. But can't you become a real part of my life once in a while
too? Can't I be extatic and floss for a second? Can't we do something
together with you feeling like I won't let you be your own person? Are
you really here to start something WITH me, or are you here to do your
own thing? Sleeping on the couch is not fair to either one of us. I
deserve to be treated better because I love you and if showing it is
"trying too hard," then I have nothing left to say but get over
yourself. The worst thing you have to complain about your girlfriend is
that she's crazy about you and is content and happy doing things you
like to do.
Boy, that's tuff. You wouldn't feel so bad if you would just address
your issues. You don't want to medicate but Miriam's classes just did
all these new studies on nicotine and for fuck sake, you really want to
feel better, then quit smoking, start on some welbutrin, eat and drink
water regularly, and exercise for 20 minutes once or twice a week. Then
start on some zanax. Otherwise, can help you anymore than just care for
you. The crime of the century